on another note. uy, may TREEHOUSE **, ♥

on another note. uy, may TREEHOUSE **, ♥

what thoughts youd get from assigning a sleeping snapshot as photo to a phonecontact.

on the top of the things that i could really be selfish are my pillows. i cant sleep without them. in the event that you sleep and unintentionally use it. ill pull it from under your sleepy head. that is how rude i can be. i dont give a damn if youre way past the rapid eye movement stage. i dont care if you get really angry from me waking you up. hell hath no fury to a person whos sleep is ruined, but uhm idc :)

my family and roomates and friends can atest to that. and above all. i am grateful that they give me the utmost understanding and forgiveness when i freely and rudely snatch their sound sleep from them. theyd know its their fault wehehe

so when im at home. my father always ask me before he goes to sleep to point out my pillows and remind everyone to not use them.

other times my brother would seriously ask permission from me if he can use them.

i know right. such a brat haha.

so just a thought, ever wonder why i dont sleep in that lazy afternoons? i guess you did not.

to the one. and only. person who i selflessly gave my pillows to use at his content. for countless times. and did not know this fact.

of course you didnt have to know.

you can run but you cant hide.

is there any place that is safe.
you have been at it for so long.
this would not have made any difference.
but it did. but. it sooo freakin did.
you can start over.
you can always start over.

you have always been a daredevil.
so jump.
you have nothing more to lose.

but remember love, noone is going to be there to break your fall.

"recently everything feels like schrodinger’s cat. a thought experiment."

sue. no this is not specifically for you of course haha but from the afternoon we had id say this would greatly summarize the conversation, may it be the little or the big infos (wink*), we had . i appreciate the pact you suggested. it would be difficult given the constant references we make hahaha! but. i am up for it 100%. i feel awkward and weird saying this early on this ‘blossoming?’ (hahahaha i might edit this next time ill find a more fitting word) friendship, im grateful to how the pieces puzzle fits this time around. of how the chances and odds led to this. i told you i was terrified for our meeting but hey wonderful things start out scary :)

sue. no this is not specifically for you of course haha but from the afternoon we had id say this would greatly summarize the conversation, may it be the little or the big infos (wink*), we had . i appreciate the pact you suggested. it would be difficult given the constant references we make hahaha! but. i am up for it 100%. i feel awkward and weird saying this early on this ‘blossoming?’ (hahahaha i might edit this next time ill find a more fitting word) friendship, im grateful to how the pieces puzzle fits this time around. of how the chances and odds led to this. i told you i was terrified for our meeting but hey wonderful things start out scary :)

importedbeers brought to you by just another good damn sick joint at leaonard wood. midweek crisis. you get the gist. haaaay.

hey jude. good ibning.

so how was jerrys timely group messages you received these past few weeks. morning ibning. goodmorning. ibning. and then last night hed text ‘kamusta ka na jud?’

i kind of was expecting it since i dont expect him to keep hitting around the bushes. so kudos to whatever led him to specify the message to me.

this is nice. him trying to ask how i am. up until he asked about youknow. then though i never asked. hed pour this information of his recent breakup as well.

tuodbala. do i have a sign hanging on my head telling that i can be your breakup hero or confidant.

i know. how you must all feel. all these negative emotions. broken hopes broken everything. believe me i do know.

but please. can someone just. please. can you. please. i beg of you. leave me alone.

wala ko energy. para batyagon nabatyag mo. sa akon pa lang. kulang na. sa imo pa ayhan.

but in the event that i do. you must be one heck of a special person if i get to drown myself with your heartaches as well.

crap.

hey jude. goodmorning.

so how was the call you received from aizalyn first thing in the morning. asking how you are. how your heart is. i think that is sweet until she pours details of her recent heartbreak to you. kay she believes you must know how she feels and what to do about everything.

i do know and im not complaining ok.

its funny. how we all undergo this same phase after breakups. tally the things you believe your relationship was/ willbe vs the hell that is/ are happening to it right now. and the score. well it never makes sense.

so gave her tons of advice. and laughed so hard because man people seriously cant take their own advice can they. at least it would do us all good if she hopefully listens to what ive said.

salamat sa pagkamusta. made me evaluate my own. so where do i stand now.

sikreto. apir!

note to self.

note to self.

Shift Solve Equals

so i held my calcu for the first time in a while and i did not know what to do with the memories which flooded my of course shitty mind.
i held it and i just stared with the keys which i painted with clear nailpolish.
i had to start reviewing so i borrowed geds book from when she reviewd in excel.
so this moment happened, i was deep in solving algebra then i swear i heard your voice. then i was transported in cebu. in that classroom. in that seat right beside you. laughing on that alambors guy.
so this got me on pause for a long while then stopped my ‘reviewing’ for the night. drowned myself by thoughts of you all throughout the rapid eye movement stage.
i dreamt of you. of that never ending meetups we have after a long while that we havent seen each other in which
i. just. want. to. hold. you. and. wish. to. God. that. when. i. finally. do. that. itll. never. end.

but it all did.

gahapdi na naman so ill stop.